In honor of World Poetry Day, we are excited to share a poem written by a DSN member. Thank you Hannah for sharing your work with us!
Popping, cracking, and snapping comes from me
This is not how my life is supposed to be
I am in pain and crying for it to stop – can’t you see?
This debilitating pain has brought me to my knees
From joint dislocations to brain fog to stretch marks on my skin
I try and fight for a “normal” life – but I never seem to win
All the subluxations and twisting have left me quite sore
All the pain – both physical and emotional – have sunk into my core
No one notices that I scream and beg to be saved
As people often tell me how strong I am and how brave
I don’t feel brave or strong or anything in between
Because my pain and suffering have yet to be seen
Waking up on my wooden bedroom floor
My muffled whimpers aren’t heard through my bedroom door
Laying on our living room floor – with my legs up a wall
It may seem silly to some – but it often helps after all
The dizziness is constant – going everywhere I go
While nausea and stomach pain is all I seem to know
From fainting to migraines to ringing in my ears
Concussions and injuries are on my list of fears
Convulsing and thrashing and moaning on the ground
The cause of these seizure-like episodes are yet to be found
Just a trip to the grocery store leaves me stuck for days in bed
As I lay there trying to fight back the tears my eyes want to shed
No matter how hard I try – invisible is all I seem to feel
My illness is not like most conditions– as mine will never heal
I feel as if I am drowning in a deep blue ocean that no one sees
Can’t someone be brave and try and rescue me?
I feel like a burden, a fake, and that I cause everyone strife
Am I really going to go through this for the rest of my life?
I see stares and funny looks when I wear my braces
And my being in my wheelchair often brings confused faces
I may look totally normal in stranger’s eyes
But in reality, I am crumbling and fighting for my life inside
My conditions may not kill me – but they suck the life out of me
All I have ever wanted is to be healthy, happy, and free
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